Thursday, January 31, 2008
i have moved too.
http://cinnamonlover.livejournal.comdon't forget to add me and change my link.thank you my loves.and jan make sure you still read my blog ah.wonder if you still do??but i will not be deleting this blog because of the memories. (: just that yea my new entries will be in livejournals.and by the way you NEED an account with livejournal if you want to read my entries.sorry loves.
i //young of the butterfly// you 1:35 AM
Sunday, January 20, 2008
birthday over.nothing much to say.niva and zana surprised me in the morning.denesh joined us for breakfast.and i guess after the movie that's when things just went downhill.after zana and niva left as well the bithday stopped being a birthday.i was happy no doubt.but not that kind of happy where i felt high and excited and my heart couldn't stop beating fast.not the happy where i felt tingly all over.well i guess as you grow older birthdays just don't matter anymore.being 2o feels no different.really.i am still as crushed as ever.still as broken as ever.still am the same as ever.
today is sunday.the 20th of Jan 2008.so at about 4+pm logita sms-es me.about her friend.about her friend who just passed away in an accident.the friend who was there for her when something happened to her best friend.the friend who came down to the hospital at 3+ in the morning becuase he didn't want her to feel scared and alone and panicked in the hospital.the friend who came down even though he was high.well basically her friend.her very very good friend.
i don't know what to say.i am in a state of shock,disbelief.i don't know what else.the blows she has been dealing with,i cannot just sit here and watch her go through shit like that.i cannot believe that i just met that guy about a week ago and thought to myself 'ok fair enough i would give him a chnce just because i can see that he and his friends do care for her'.i cannot believe that i met him just one week ago and now this guy doesn't exist anymore.i mean he isn't anything to me.just my cousin's friend.but he's no more.i cannot even imagine how logita is feeling.i want to go down but i don't know if i will have the strength for her.
'friday only i fed him you know' that's what logita messaged me.imagine the pain she is going through.God i have said my prayer.now i don't know.i really don't anymore.i have a feeling i am going to cry again tonight.
i'm at a loss for words once again.
i //young of the butterfly// you 4:35 PM
Monday, January 14, 2008
spraining or fracturing any part of your body is no joke.seriously.all i've fractured is my pinky.my little little pinky.even then i feel like a freaking handicapped.simple chores like tying my hair,washing my own plate and carrying something with my left hand suddenly becomes difficult.everytime i take off the bandage and realise i still cannot feel my finger,i feel like crying.everytime i suddenly feel a sharp or throbbing pain,i feel like crying.i hate it.i cannot bear seeing the finer like that.and the whole joint swollen.the joint is like blue-black/red.it just looks bad.and i really got super freaked when i took off my bandage for the first time in zana's house before the party.i was on the verge of crying.and today in the bus it was painful when i had to stand and hold on to the handrails to steady myself.not easy i tell you.i had to carry stuff in my right hand as well.and the doctor says to give it 2-3 months to fully heal.my next appointment is on the 28th of jan.oh wells.i just got to pray and give it time i guess.
i saw
the king at vasan's party.after a LONG time.i think the last i saw him was at bhindo's 21st?and that was when i was in J2.i think.was it then?2 years back.i think it was.he still looks as freaking hot as ever.and yes chitra the sparks still fly.at least from my side.he makes my heart jump.very fast and very very high.and i realised that guys with a very very very white smile look very very very attractive.
the king really does have that white smile.that smile does 'things' to girls.i swear it does.and yes i was too chicken to ask him for a photo.i told myself this time round i would.but got too chicken seriously.oh wells.i guess it'll be at somebody's wedding that i will see him at next.hais.
the one thing that kept me going last week was suse auntie's calls and knowing that i was going to meet her on friday evening.even though it was just to follow her somewhere and then back.i am thinking of going over tomorrow evening and on my birthday as well.and i need to squeeze zana in as well.and more than anything i just want to be happy on my birthday.if you really want to know i want a female cavalier king charles spaniel puppy for this birthday but it isn't really very nice for me to go around asking people like that.so all i want is to be made happy on this birthday.if you ain't free on thursday we got the whole weekend baby. (:
3 more days (:
i //young of the butterfly// you 11:24 PM
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
niva's 'guest' post was interesting isn't it.and yes we do have silly conversations like that.you need cheering up.go to her.and yes thanks for publicising my birthday (: and jan is coming to my house soon.in ALL WHITE.so sexy.singing naane varuvaen.CAN'T WAIT DEI!
and i don't understand how niva can make the post so colourful and different sized and all.it looks so nice but if i were to do it,it would turn out to be a mess.
7 more days people (:
i //young of the butterfly// you 10:36 PM
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
hello to all the loyal readers of praveena's blog.(including the owner herself who will be reading this to amuse herself.haha!) today prav's post will not be sad and gloomy but its gonna be a happy one!cos MISS ANONYMOUS decided to add a little life. as you can read i'm already making no sense.but oh well.JUST READ ON!
here's an extract of a convo i had with prav just a few mins before i decided to write this crazy post:
niva(: says:
wahhahaha.okay fri lets go prata man!wahhaha.ive been craving for it for 3 days.
niva(: says:
do u think i'm pregnant?
a hug is like a bandage for a wounded heart says:
okies
niva(: says:
wahahhahahaha.
a hug is like a bandage for a wounded heart says:
yea
a hug is like a bandage for a wounded heart says:
u mad
a hug is like a bandage for a wounded heart says:
wid whose child??
a hug is like a bandage for a wounded heart says:
draculaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
niva(: says:
hahha i think vijay's la
niva(: says:
wahhahahahahhaha
a hug is like a bandage for a wounded heart says:
I WILL SLAP YOU NIVASHINI!!
niva(: says:
hahhaha i was waiting for tt
niva(: says:
CLASSIC
a hug is like a bandage for a wounded heart says:
vijay is mine and only I am having sex wid him
niva(: says:
hhahah sorry girl.did him first.
niva(: says:
omg slap me
a hug is like a bandage for a wounded heart says:
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
a hug is like a bandage for a wounded heart says:
hahahaha
a hug is like a bandage for a wounded heart says:
omg
niva(: says:
i sound like a bloody prostitute
a hug is like a bandage for a wounded heart says:
omg omg
a hug is like a bandage for a wounded heart says:
ur funny
a hug is like a bandage for a wounded heart says:
haha no la u dun
niva(: says:
but i'm sure he'd want u too.
niva(: says:
he's a player
niva(: says:
i just met him last night
niva(: says:
he didnt wanna accept responsibilty
niva(: says:
wad an ass.
niva(: says:
so i decided to make brad pitt the dad
niva(: says:
and he was totally cool with it
a hug is like a bandage for a wounded heart says:
bloody hell uve lost it
niva(: says:
hahahha yeah i have.abt a month ago to vijay
niva(: says:
and i'm proud of (:
niva(: says:
COS HE wAS MINE FIRST!
niva(: says:
wahahahahhaha
niva(: says:
that's why the pregency kit test was positive
niva(: says:
like duh
okay people wad started out as a simple convo for pratas ended up in such a HUGE MAJOR mess.well just wanted to let the world know prav is just as mad as me(: and in case u all didnt know
I AM THE LOVE OF HER LIFE(though she refuses to admit it).oh oh i need to tell ya'll something too.a little bitof background.i
HATE india actors and i know she
LOVES vijay,that's why i even mentioned his name.i think i have like become more sane typing this out.but oh wells.u'll def hear more from me. prav i hope u had a great time reading this.
smile little princess(: it means the whole world to alot of people, at least me(:
and for all the other people its somebody's birthday in
EIGHT days so ya'll know wad to do(:make this her bestest year ever!
alright time for me to depart.sadly.i need to give birth already.it took me that long to do this.hahah!
love love!
i //young of the butterfly// you 11:49 PM
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
i never thought this fear would enter my bloody heart.but it just did.and boy does it suck!!!!!!!!!!
i hope it does not happen.Please God don't let it happen.PLEASEEEEE!
i //young of the butterfly// you 9:45 PM
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
as i have said.and will say again.take my life away from me right now and i REALLY wouldn't mind.because i had the BESTEST last 10 days of 2007.really.unbeatable.blessed.happy.heartfilling.it was just beautiful.and i HONESTLY cannot believe that my year ended on such a good note.
i cancelled out on watchnight service in the end.to club with suse auntie.well that was because i really couldn't just leave her alone on new year's eve.everybody was spending it with everybody else.but not her.so we decided to club.and we just had the best time ever.ushered in the new year happily.with another special someone (: whom i am DEFINITELY going to miss.like A LOT.just can't wait till he is back again in march.i hope he does get in contact with us.that's all.but i believe he will.dancing the night away with her and him.it was a BLAST.and more than that it was so so so so heart filling.
i don't know if it is meant to be a wrong feeling or what but ushering in THIS new year in a club is something new to me.but it was just so good.and for this i REALLY am so grateful to God.i really am very very very thankful.for every single thing.you wouldn't quite understand how i am feeling but this happiness/joy/satisfaction/full heart i am feeling,they're really new.i just cannot believe it.i really am happy.for once in my life.
17 more days.
i //young of the butterfly// you 8:28 AM