Sunday, August 12, 2007
i tired writing a letter to zana.
i tried typing an email to zana.
they didn't work.
some things are just not meant to be told.
i actually saw hafiz on tv during the parade and suddenly i miss hafiz a lot.was looking through the chat logs.yes i keep most of my chat logs because i love most of the people on my MSN list.haha.i won't deny that he was a great friend.the male version of zana.but i guess i cannot blame him because i was at fault.this is pretty retarded because he is online as i type.but i am too afraid to initiate a conversation with him.its ok.i am still going to wish him on his birthday.just afraid of his reply.or maybe even the lack of a reply.i mean what if he replies and asks who is this?gosh it will be such a slap in the face.ok i should not even think about it.
my room is currently a HUGE mess.even after i TRIED to clean it up.gosh.i suck.it is getting more depressing being in here man.
there is something very sucky about sundays.really.and whats worse is going to sleep on a rainy sunday and having to wake up to a shitty rainy monday morning all alone by yourself in the house.which is what i am going to do.as it is i am already feeling so depressed.wish i could ask somebody to come over but nobody is free.it is either work or NUS.hais.sucky man sucky.and with the rain i think i might just have a melt down in the morning.i wish my brothers had no school or something.seeing the damn mess of my room tomorrow is enough to make me burst into tears.i swear.
probably have to go down for henna class tomorrow.just hope that it does not rain when i am about to leave because then i wouldn't want to leave.why does the fucking shop have to be all the way in bloody jurong?and just a question ANYBODY out there want me to thread your eyebrows for you??because i am learning threading.all by myself actually and i just want people to TRUST me with the eyebrows.i will TRY my level best NOT to spoil it.i am serious.i just need MAJOR MAJOR practice.so once i get the hang of it you can go around telling people you helped in my becoming a threader.or maybe even a beautician.well if you ever need henna or mani or pedi.i could TRY.i mean i am learning.all by myself. (: you can help me. (:
and one more thing anybody i actually know happen to be going for sassychix's make up classes?because i want to go.but not alone.so yea.anybody?
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