Saturday, June 02, 2007
you know right................
when you were at the age of 13 and 14 having infatuations.they somehow remained infatuations.probably because both parties were too immature to be thinking about anything serious.but as you age.like me.right now.an infatuation does not just remain and infatuation or a so called crush.it becomes slightly more serious.as in the guy makes you think and you think about the guy.it is just different.it is about the heart.the character.the personality.the behaviour.the looks.the friends.the everything.he is not just cute or damn hot anymore.other things matter.
so that is what is happening.i am not one to easily fall for guys or anything.im much too protective of myself to let anything happen.but i guess i am just afraid of the feelings that come in between.it is too strange and foreign.i just got to get used to it i guess.it is different now.it is not about getting butterflies in your stomach when you see him or when you get an SMS from him.it is not about him making you all tingly.at least i have stopped feeling that.it is more about hey he is here and i had missed him for so long.it is more about we understand each other.it is more about me being able to talk to him about anything.
it is just different.and i am just scared because i do not recognise these feelings.well let things be i guess.we shall continue our harmless and shameless flirtings for now. (:
i //young of the butterfly// you 1:28 AM