Thursday, May 31, 2007
i am so fucked up.i spent the WHOLE day out with BELOVED people.people who seriously make me DAMN happy and all.and yet after i came home and saw my mother,she just made me want to cry the rest of the night away.what the hell is she man?may i fucking know WHEN this relationship turned SO DAMN sour that i cannot even approach her or talk to her.my emotions are at such a low right now.
i seriously think me and my mother SO need to start from scratch.i am so fucking sick of this.i seriously am.my own mother cannot even understand me.
honestly DUH i am jealous of niva who seems to have such a good relationship with her parents.both her mother and father who care for her.and working with her for 5 months has definitely showed me how much they care for her.whereas my parents over here they just chuck me in this super majorly fucked up world and expect me to survive WITHOUT even the slightest help.
fuck it.you bitch about EVERYBODY ELSE'S parents to me.then fucking be a damn parent to me before you fucking bitch dammit.what do you even know about my life to begin with?all you can say about me is these few things
1.i am ugly - you remind me about this EVERYTIME you can get or whenever i dress up.
2.i am hot tempered - what the damn fuck about you?
3.i got a lot of moodswings - hey fucking check yourself first ok??
i really want to just sit down and pull out all the hair from my head,scream,ram myself SO DAMN hard into the wall.i so bloody want to just do something to vent my anger damn it.
i am 19 and in these 19 years of fucking life i have managed to screw up my relationship with BOTH my parents.OMFG!i am so damn fucked up man.so damn fucked up.
i //young of the butterfly// you 12:13 AM