Wednesday, May 09, 2007
i am majorly screwed up right now.i don't know what is happening with my body.but a few hours ago i knew that if i were to eat anything,i would probably puke everything out.but now..my stomach is growling as if there will never be another time for it to growl.and guess what?my mum does not usually stock up on snacks so there is nothing to eat at home.
excuse my absence from this blogging for a few more days.because as a 'teacher' i have 4 classes of scripts to mark and i am about 70% through and besides that i need to find time to do my portfolio.so thank you everybody for willing to be my model.i will be missing for quite awhile.
doing a portfolio is REALLY REALLY time consuming and very troublesome especially for someone like me.but i guess after you see the fruit of your labour there is no limit to the satisfaction you feel.but i know that i will definitely be putting my heart and soul into this portfolio.
and i am thinking of taking up the cosmoprof diploma in make up.not the expensive one but the 3k one.my mum herself actually suggested it.and i will be paying for it out of my own earnings.so i guess i will know the importance of it.but nothing is confirmed because i am still thinking about it.will anybody actually EVER hire me to do their make up for them??will anybody actually EVER hire me to do photography/bridal make up??....then again there goes my dream of being the MODEL for someone.now i am going to be doing the make up for the model.but it is quite cool come to think of it. (:
cousin's wedding coming up in about 2 weeks.it is going to be another major rush since it is a friday wedding.and it is all the way in jurong.God so far!!!but then i HAVE to go because i am carrying some oil lamp thingy for her.hais.why do i have this feeling i will make a fool out of myself in front of everybody?oh right.that is because i ALWAYS do.
i realised i CANNOT stand loneliness or having no one to talk to.past 2 nights i have been coming home after everyone is asleep or when one of them is watching TV.but they won't talk to me.and in any case if i come home after they are asleep,i really will not have anybody to talk to.and yesterday was just so bad.but i fell asleep before i could mess my mind up.thank God for that.it just sucks not talking to anyone in the family.
ok i just realised the damn time is 0020 hours.i should have been at least 35 minutes into my sleep by now.so i am disappearing now.i shall be back in a few more days with more 'reflections' as mel says. (:
i //young of the butterfly// you 12:04 AM