Sunday, February 18, 2007
JAN:hapyp valentine's day to you to darling..hope you had fun..anyway glad that i saw you that day and that you could come for the movie..during your march holidays we better be meeting up MORE often ok..love you always babe..
CHITZ:hey darling..happy valentine's day to you too. (: hope you been doing good babe..love you as well..
i was being a total bitch to thad juz awhile ago AFTER zana told me not to..well..i AM a bitch..period..please don't expect me to be fine after hurting my damned feelings with the stupid dumbass things you say..n you know what??..don't bother asking me to tell you what the mistake is..because if i do then there won't be any need for us to talk already..i was thinking of calling thad actually but the past few days/nights haf been really hectic..i had just finished showering when he called..and well he had to tolerate my fucking attitude once again..i just don't know what to say..zana told me to explain myself..but when i was actually talking to him i just knew that i couldn't do it without actually crying..which is why i didn't bother..and i mean even if i had actually told thad what was it that offended me what difference would it have made??..no fucking difference..why??..because they will probably do it again..so whats the point?..i mean what the fuck..i have been through hurt after hurt..pain after pain..this is bloody nothing..im just going to force myself to push it to the back of my mind..don't think i actually wana see or talk to them for awhile..it just fucking doesnt matter..
this brings me back to a point..NO guy will EVER EVER understand me..NO good guy actually exists..good guys exist ONLY to their girlfriends..other than that most guys as friends are just crap..it doesnt matter to me whether all the guys are like tt because i have been meeting fuckers from the time i was 14..i gave up on finding for a good guy quite sometime back..so forget it man..don't really see any reason to keep in touch because i am only going to get more n more difficult..it would be better for you guys to just go lead your happy lives without me there..
spent almost half the day in NUS..for that sports spectra thing..since CJ had actually sent in one team for netball..i decided to go down and support them with niva..so we went..had quite a bit of fun..and this was the first time seeing chris play netball..haha..NP's netball spares no one..quite cute actually..and CJ's team was such a contrast..they just like went there just to have fun...anyway spent time with all precious people today..so i am ok i guess..
after that went to suta's hse..as usual we didn't spend enough time there..but had a bit of fun..putting henna for them..toking and crapping..then went home slightly late..
friday had my cousin's ROM..i think everything actually went well..surprisingly..no jam..no problems nothing..just that the transport was ultra small and that we were so cramped up..but it was good spending time with the beloved sathesh.. (: (: (: (: well all in all things were fine..
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