Sunday, December 03, 2006
mel im so sorry tt uve been coming here evryday but seeing no updates..so sorry..juz tt iv no time to update n its vry inconvenient since the com is n my bro's room..
k so 30th nov was prom..my first time wearing a dress..in which i think i actually looked pretty nice..but the pnt is smth at prom or maybe post prom or juz smth left me feeling happy..i really cannot put my finger on it but evrytime i juz think abt evrything it puts a smile on my face..which is a gd thing for me.. (: or maybe i actually know wad it is..haha..but im not saying..im juz happy..
but on the othr hand its also kinda sad cuz my time in CJ is really up for now..i kno im definitely gona miss a few ppl..A LOT..well actually i alrdy miss them lyk a lot..n im glad tt i let them kno tt i missed them..its lyk the ppl u meet in JC r juz totally different..totally..n so yea ive met a few different kind of ppl..n it means things wun be the same u kno..its lyk u wun be seeing them evryday..u wun be getting the chance to tok to them evryday oso..tt im gona miss a lot..
the whole thing is scary..n i mean we're all growing up..we're no more 13 or 16..gosh...k now im getting freaked out so i shall shut up..
n it was annoying tt the post prom party had to end at 3..i was really in the mood to dance..n i din even drink much..only 1 drink k..but it was annoying..n then michelle left ard 3+..i decided to go home right after tt as well cuz i felt awkward staying wid my classmates..so my retarded plans of staying out the whole night got spoiled..i contemplated juz walking wherever my legs wld bring me but do i look lyk im brave enuff?..no..haha..so yea went home instead..n i actually danced in those heels..n yea its sun today [prom was on thurs] n i still cant feel my toes..they're SPOILT!..lesson learnt:NEVER EVER dance in 3.5inch heels again..NEVER!..my toes juz feel funny..its lyk they're thr n not thr but they're thr..but they're not..k im being annoying..i wonder if its a bruise or smth..the price i hafta pay for one night of beauty..aiyoh..
k so i went to pierce my ears again..for the fun of it..n stupid me has been eating seafood lyk nobody's business so now my ear itches n hurts lyk HELL..or rather lyk SHIT..or maybe lyk FUCK..sme fcking expletive k..its juz bloody itchy..i CANNOT take it..i hate the fact tt my threshold for pain has gone down lyk nobody's business..my nose piercing actually hurts..its retarded..last yr i got lyk 4 piercings done in a wk n it din hurt..now i got 3 n it hurts lyk shit..fuck it man..now i gotta find sme othr alternative..PAIN N ITCHY LAAAAAAAAAAAAA...
family..this one word alone means so many things..n its extended family..meaning relatives..esp mum's side..problems after problems..n im dragged into it..if i wana stay out of it they still tok to me abt it..n wad can i do..im really vry vry helpless..i feel lyk thrs nobody i can tok to abt it cuz they dun really understand..nobody i kno actually seems to be THAT close to their cousins n relatives..n even if they r they dun actually seem to haf tt problem..after wad suse auntie said today i REALLY almost cried in front of her..its juz so hurting to hear her toking lyk tt cuz i think of her as my guardian angel and a second mother..but wads done is alrdy done..i really really duno wad to do..u think u can help?..
n now for driving..yes went driving after i think a mth or 2..n yea i can still park n do all the circuit stuff..but guess wad?..i went for driving without renewing my PDL..wad a joke..damn funny man..so i cldnt drive on the roads..n i was so totally dreading driving..n well i got my wish..haha so i still need to renew my PDL by the nxt lesson la..so i still hafta drive on the roads..darn it..
im officially REALLY broke..christmas is juz ard the corner..n im kinda screwed..am gona start making cards soon..cuz thr r many many ppl i wana make for.. (:
zana's going off to india tmw..soo badly wanted to tok to her..but dun ask cuz i juz cldnt bring myself to do so..well nvm..lets juz wait till she comes back..i guess..n im not even sure if i wana tok..i means its not juz her..its a lot of things..
out of the 10 dates tt i was supposed to haf wid ppl i think ive gone out wid only 4 of them..how pathetic..need to make plans to meet the rest..but mel n clare having exams soon i think..n ash started wrk..denesh n kohila i so hafta meet them soon..really must..cuz wen the new yr starts im sure ppl will be busy again..n i may decide to go missing nxt yr..
k mel i hope this is good enough for u..haha..my faithful blog reader..i seriously think ur the only one who reads it..haha..I LOVE YOU.. (:
i //young of the butterfly// you 9:01 PM