Sunday, November 05, 2006
suta n logita the 2 biggest liars ive known my entire life..n sad to say they're my cousins n i actually thot they were trustworthy..
dun tell me to juz sit here n see u both ROT n SPOIL cuz i kno the shit ttz happening wid the both of u..i read one prev convo between the both of u tt was enuff to let me kno tt whatever i tell
suta,
suta goes n tells logita..rem tt time wen i told u[
suta] abt tt STUPID JAPPI calling me back n chris seeing logita at wid KATTAI at vista pnt..i KNOW for a fact tt u went to tell her[logita]..n logita i kno u called me a cheebye..i dun care..u wana hate me hate me openly..dun go around being a hypocrite..n logita u said this 'if they dun care they will die ah'..no we wun..but as u can see u seem to be one person in the family who is really spoiling urself..u NEED someone to guide u..but if u dun want anybody then fine..i cant be bothered..n its not as if i am so nosey to go n poke my nose into things..its PEOPLE who come n tell me they see u doing this and tt..not tt i wana go around poking my nose into ur business..n
suta if ur gona help her cover things up..go ahead..but after this i DUN wana haf anything to do wid both of u anymore..u both go cover things up for each othr..continue calling me a bitch n a cheebye behind my back..i dun really care anymore..
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suta im sure u actually kno abt logita's 'bf'..u kno the crap tt she does..whatever u kno if u still try to cover up for her u r pretty dumb..cuz these kinda things vry easily spoil a person..n ur alrdy 16..i think u SHOULD haf some sense of maturity..but it doesnt seem lyk it since ur covering up for her..well i juz duno wad to say to u..juz tt im utterly disappointed wid the both of u..but i told myself its ok its for the sake of family n love..but oh wells..now i realised i was SO stupid..
after reading tt convo i was shocked n utterly disgusted..i so make myself a joke..n logita u wana call me a cheebye call me tt in my face ok..dun go n tok to suta behind my back n say such stuff..
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i really am quite a joke..u kno since the day logita stepped into sec sch A LOT of things told me NEVER EVER trust her..joke ard wid her laugh wid her go out wid her BUT never let her into my life..same goes for
suta..i mean i was always ok wid her..but i juz had this strong feeling tt i shld never let them kno wad was going on in my life..BUT i never paid attn to tt cuz my mum n all my aunties always told me treat my cousins as my own siblings n so i did..i loved them a lot..i told myself to be patient wid them as they go thru their teenage phase..i told myself to try..i did..but i came across their convo today..n i was hurt,disgusted n disappointed..i mean to think tt i actually wasted my time caring for them n loving them..it so is a waste of my time n efforts..n i mean poking my nose into othr people's business..i dun do tt u kno..its people who come n tell me shit abt them..u dun expect me to sit around n do nothing rite?..well i guess its tt teenage age whr u juz DUN want ppl toking shit abt u or poking their nose into ur business..im sorry if ive infringed in ur lives in anyway..but juz kno this one thing...u wana hate me,call me names call me those names straight in my damned face..dun do it behind my back ok?..
n well i never shld haf let myself get close to them in the firt place cuz i knew our maturity levels never clicked..but cuz of wad happened wid
suta last yr i told myself to get over it n try my best to be a fren to them...well it doesnt really help does it?..i mean im still called a 'cheebye' after all..im ashamed to haf even thot tt
suta n logita cld perhaps become lyk a christina on my mum's side..well how stupid i was..
i guess the one thing i cld learn out of this whole thing is NEVER EVER to trust them n perhaps not even tok to them again..another thing i still CANNOT handle teenagers n shldnt try anymore..n after all this im stupid enuff to actually feel hurt..i guess its another one of those instance wen the ppl i love actually betrayed me..it ALWAYS happens to me..
i //young of the butterfly// you 4:07 PM