Thursday, September 07, 2006
[edits]
last night was the shittiest night..n THANK GOD for ISWARAN N FAIZAL N RAJ..i went clubbing last night wid chris n annapoo..faizal n his fren were supposed to follow us but in the end they din wana go..so 3 of us girls went to drink cuz it was ladies night..we went to Gotham..free flow..we all had the 3 different vodkas..gin tonic..n chris continued wid bourbon or whiskey..whilst i juz continued wid vodka..all in all i think we all drank abt 6-8 glasses..those 2 nuts got high n went out of control..esp annapoo..after Gotham we went MOS n annapoo cldnt even dance properly..brought her to toilet n she vomitted evrything out..THANK GOD chris was smsing ish at tt time..n ish realised she was gone too n he called me..asked faizal to come down to MOS..so i brought the both of them out met faizal n raj..gosh..duno wad to say man..felt so scared..chris wldnt shut up..MY GOD!.she juz cont toking shit..finally brought them to macs..n sat thr the whole night..left at abt 6+ close to 7..took bus hme n slept nicely in the bus..i was juz thinking thank God i decided to go clubbing last night..if not i duno wad wld haf happened to these 2 girls man really..n thank God for ish who tried his very best to lighten my mood n cheer me up....n he did..was toking to him on the fone for damn long..passing the fone around among me faizal n raj..n chris frm time to time who blabbered sme shit into the phone..n having faizal n raj thr even tho i din kno raj..man..im damn damn grateful..even though its my 2ns time clubbing we've drank before..seen chris drink before..n this has never happened..had to happen yest of all nights..and surprisingly i wasnt high or anything..instead of them 2 taking care of me,i was taking care of them 2..nxt time we go clubbing the guys r so coming wid us..[edits]
its been fucking long since i blogged..well am blogging now cuz i got my com back..anyways to sum things up..........
-the ppl whom i thot made life in CJ good are the exact ppl i DO NOT wana continue wid...maybe a few here n thr...but not all of them..
-hp dropped into soup..the saddest day of 2006 for me..cried myself to sleep for weeks cuz i was so sad tt the msgs n the hp were gone..it was the emptiest feeling ever..to top it off my mum gave me hell without even finding out wad actually happened to it..
-sathesh[cousin] my bros n my female cousins r ppl ive come to love SO much..its so overwhelming..wen im wid them juz us children it feels so good n loving..i feel so blessed n its lyk the best feeling in the world..n its nice being the big sister taking care of all of them..i really do love all of them..
-wad happened on 20th aug i will never forget..the whole fucking misunderstanding cuz of I-DUNO-WAD..actually i think i was juz a bit too sensitive...i hate problems lyk this..i dun lyk dealing wid them esp wen things tt i said to ppl i trust gets passed around...n then this becomes lyk the 'Broken Telephone'..so yea..tt was one day i really hated..
-month of august always evokes jealousy in me..seems lyk i will never haf my parents love..hurt me so bad to see my parents celebrating my bros bday n not giving a damn abt my bday..
-"u know all along i've been telling pple.if u really love tt friend never let the person go no matter wad.cos its part and parcel of friendship to go thru shit.that's how u become the best of friends"..from niva...wonder if i shld haf applied this in priya's n jay's case?
-ash thot we gave up on her n tt made me so upset..promised to meet her after prelims n tok cuz we need to..n i miss her lyk hell..
-thoughts of suicide entering my head again..this time worse n its lyk i think of it more...im juz going nuts really..
-driving is ALMOST done..am QUITE glad..hoping to get my license ASAP..
-i LOVE ONAMs n DEEPAVALIs...cuz its a time of gathering for evrybody...tt day at onam priya chechi asked sham chech chris n me to be smth lyk a bridesmaid/flower girls...i kno we r a bit old..but yea its a diff thing..we're gona be carrying lamps..I CANT WAIT!!!!...haha..n jaya chechi n priya chechi r totally the sweetest..(:
-went thru my memorabilia tt day...cried over a lot of things..namely ppl i guess..n God also..
1.Pinks
2.Priya
3.Jay
4.Jolene
things seem very broken between me n each of this individuals..n well i really duno..but going thru all those things tt day made me juz wana go back to IJ forever..never wana leave tt place..
-went back to IJ to see susa n mrs alex after our teachers' day celebration..was SO HAPPY to be back in tt blessed n loving place...esp seeing these 2 teachers juz totally brightened up my day.. (: n spending the day wid my darlings denesh niva fran n kohila.. (:
well i guess ttz abt all my summing up.. (:
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