Thursday, September 14, 2006
-im really tired..n i mean both physically n mentally tired..doesnt help tt its prelims n im back to my insomniac pattern of sleeping..my brain is juz dead..my body is equally dead..
-been talkng to clare lately..made me realise how badly i missed her..its been SO long..really..i really wana catch up wid evrybody soon..i miss mel jo lene n pinks too..
-im burning up..literally..having a fever..all this shit will happen during prelims..
-i miss denesh n kohila..wish i cld tok to them lyk prev how we used to tok evry morn...well guys ALL THE BEST for ur promos..love u guys..
-i really dun mind dying rite now..
-these past few days ive given up on studying..i either switch on the com n watch the time as it ticks away or stare at my phone n watch the time as it ticks away...[tis sentence sounds wrong]
-cousin's getting ROMed nxt yr..another cousin getting married..hais its alrdy time man..evrybody is either getting ROMed or MARRIED...so sad...n yet so happy....
-sat down for one n a half hrs juz now n cleared my mind abt her..had quite enough really..now its up to me to let go..n i realised after close to one yr i haven..
-TUES: i thot lit was fine..HOD was good..GM was good..BNW was fine..
-WED:econs was shit..Q3 was good..i felt so motivated n confident..then came Q2 n Q6 which i fucked up im sure...
-THURS:lit open bk was[in one word] FUCKED..EVERY bk...even HMT...
-tmw FRI: MATHS MY FAV..wish i cld feel as confident as i used to last yr..but i cant no more..so God bless me..if He wants to..
-i really think i will be doing the world a gd deed by getting rid of myself..firstly NOBODY/NONE OF MY 'FRENS' wld haf to deal wid me..they wldnt haf to share my sorrow..n im sure many dun want to..they wldnt haf to share my joy..which they may want to..they wldnt haf to deal wid sucha low esteemed person..they wldnt haf to deal wid such an ass..last time i wldnt even think twice abt smsing zana wenever im upset..nowadays i think MORE than thrice if i ever feel lyk letting her kno im upset..thrs no pnt in telling ppl..no pnt..ttz why for the past month or so ive been keeping evrything to myself..i haven talked to zana or chris abt anything..i only inform them wen im really happy lyk wen i passed my FTT...ttz all..thrs so much i wana say here right now..but i REALLY cannot bring myself to do so..juz cant anymore..
lemme end on a funny note (:
mum : delegates frm overseas r coming to spore for the IMF meeting
bro: wad is dele
gatesmum abt to explainprav : God u duno wad a delegate is?
bro : i think its Bill
Gates son.
mum n prav look at each othr n burst out laughing.bro embarrassed n shuts up.
i //young of the butterfly// you 10:41 PM