im a lil butterfly (:

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. The tagged victims have to come up with eight different points of his/her perfect lover.
2. Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover. (duh.)
3. Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
4. If you are tagged the second time, there's no need to do this AGAIN.
5. Lastly, most importantly, HAVE. FUN. DOING. IT .

Gender: male

8 points:
1.must be a Christian wid faith stronger than mine
2.must be able to tahan all my moodswings n bad mood...accept me for wad i am...
3.tall dark n handsome (:
4.smart n patient n gentle n kind n caring n loving n the list goes on n on n on n on.. (:
5.loves me like A LOT LOT LOT LOT LOT LOT..haha
6.treats me lyk a princess..hahaha...
7.must lyk at least sme of the things tt i lyk..EXCLUDING the girls... (:
8.rich...i WANT a rich bf..call me spoilt,dumb or whatever i still want a rich bf.. (:

8 unlucky victims:
MEL // JO // MEE-SHELL // PRIYA // JAY // JAN // RUBY[juz do it for the fun of it k..sorry] // DUNO WHO ELSE...

sun
hais...driving today..i went wid a really heavy heart n in an extremely panicked state...drove REALLY badly today..im quite disgusted n shocked at how i drove today..i KNOW i can drive better n i KNOW i can do it..its juz tt silly fear ttz stopping me frm doing it...honestly i cannot stop it..i duno how im gona overcome the damned fear but i haf to soon enough..or not im never gona make it..

ive been really stressed out these past few days..
-carnival
-mp3 player screwing up
-DRIVING!!!!!
-family
-monan,nives,sara leaving soon....well at least nives n sara will be back in a wk but monan..who knows wen he'll be able to come back...

evrything's lyk going wrong..juz wrong..ive got no time to do anything...feel lyk evrything's a mess..ive been super bitchy n snappy at everyone..im really sorry..

felt really bad for snapping at denesh juz now..i kno she din do anything...but mans i juz snapped at her for no reason...im really so sorry denesh...hais...its really shit...n i snapped at monan oso...thank God these 2 ppl din take it to heart...felt really shitty...

zana came over to help make the henna tubes..gosh wad a tiring process..had to cancel wid jay..it took almost lyk wad 5 hrs...goodness...henna is a messy affair man....

mon
the day of the carnival..well id say tt the day started out right cuz monan came n helped out..so picked him up..n then went to the sch..smehow felt really happy tt he came n helped out...n it was fun too..but he left ard 8+ cuz he had work..so sent him off..n then the carnival STARTED...was kinda nervous abt being in a bad mood n not being able to put the henna properly n handling the p4 kids...but evrything went well...thank goodness the shortage of ppl wasnt really much of a prob...made 11 tubes of henna..n ended up using only 1..seriously tt was so bloody annoying k...n then thr was this girl who was wid the malay grp..she wanted to put henna so badly..but i cldnt put for her cuz evrytime she came to the booth the kids came...n the kids get priority cuz its their carnival..felt quite bad...but generally evrything was good...felt satisfied...really satisfied..

well after tt was even more fun..me udaya hafiz n thad went out...juz walk around...n udaya was really thirsty so we went to swensens...drank water...n then had a TOPLESS 5 haha..the name hafiz gave was seriously funny.........nvm...k i chose the raisin for the alcohol flavour..felt lyk i needed it..n i totally forgot abt hafiz..felt kinda bad but yea...then udaya had tasty water cuz thad decided to put salt n pepper in her water...ok we juz did a whole load of crap..but it was fun..then went home after tt..

saw my darling chris at cwp..felt so bad tt i cldnt be thr for her much.. ): hope she is ok..she's having sch in the day n then work in the evenings..n then she is tired at night...nvm..this sun her bday..shall do smth for her.. (:

tues
woke up to monan's sweet voice...gosh..at 7 fricking am...yea toked till 9 n then i fell aslp again la..damn shit k...woke up at 12...then last min planned to go bugis wid udaya...bought my bag finally...after searching MANY MANY MANY MANY shops..hehe..din buy the bag tt i initially wanted to...bought this black bag wid a silver crown..(: haha..

wed
had maths lesson..ughs...decided to take 851 in the end..after seeing the horrifying crowd at the platform..scary man..yea n luckily i wasnt late..so maths went fine..juz tt EVERYTHING i did was wrong...fuck k..dun tok abt it..

after tt met udaya n i wanted to go shopping..for MORE earrings..n so i did..n so i bought MORE earrings...YAYNESS..im SO happy..cuz those were the earrings tt i SO badly wanted..but in bugis they were 7 a pair..n in far east they were fricking 3 bucks a pair...thank goodness i wasnt so stupid as to go buy them in bugis..so now ive got NEW n NICE earrings..im gona change them EVERYDAY...n buy somemore cuz i still want..haha..yea i AM obsessed wid earrings..

oh yea n i FINALLY found a simple nice cross..its a bit big though...but i still got a cross...so im happy...n i PROMISE to keep tis properly n not lose it lyk the prev one...i PROMISE...

planned to come back to my hse n clean my room..but i swear i was juz too tired to do ANYTHING...so ended up lazing ard for an hr...udaya was filing/buffing her nails...while i was trying to find a comfy slping position..cuz my extremely LONG body had to squeeze into the width of my bed...how retarded is tt..but yea...then sent udaya hme n came hme n did hsewrk...i still haven cleaned my room btw..

tmw lit lect in the morn..after tt tuition..after tt sending sara n nives off..after tt i PROMISE to spend time wid monan...cuz i haven met him since mon..n he's prolly gona leave this wk..n im gona miss him lots...so yea..

the feeling of emptiness in my hse is here again...i duno la..i brought it upon myself so i cant really complain rite..maybe tis is why i hate coming home..i need to haf a good cry again..

n apologies to ALL THOSE whom ive snapped at in the past few days...god tt angst was juz scary...or maybe my temper has resurfaced...im turning into a grouchy old bitch..my moodswings r getting frm alrdy BAD to WORSE...i juz dun lyk the person im becoming..hais...but i oso duno wad to do abt it..honestly ive given up on changing..cuz wen i want to nobody lets me..esp my family..they juz keep bringing it up n saying tt i will NEVER change cuz im alrdy lyk tt...im freaking myself out..really..wid this temper/anger/hatred i haf in me..n its not easy to get rid of...trust me..it isnt..

i //young of the butterfly// you 10:02 PM