k first lemme blog abt going out on sat wid mel n jo.. (: (: ..smiles smiles smiles RETARDEDLY..was so damn fricking happy to see them..haha went for lunch at Thai Express...never ate thr before so trusted mel n jo to order for me...PINEAPPLE RICE..was fricking nice n sweet..n by the way i only found one tiny piece of fish in tt big serving of rice..so sad...really had no room for more after tt..tho mel n jo actually ordered another plate for themselves after eating their meals..im fascinated..then alan joined us for lunch as well n ate 3 bowls of rice..god..how do ppl do tt??..k i kno im an ass..anyways..yea..after tt took neos..haha..had plenty of fun..din take pics wid cam tho..i bought 2 new tops which im in love wid..n i bought tis pink spag top..for the colour..its a bit tight...actually REALLY tight..but i juz love looking at it..i wana frame it up n hang it on the wall..n NO im NOT kidding..
after tt went hm..udaya came over..cousins came over..haha..was damn bloody funny la..esp after dinner..we played tt number game n the forfeit thingie of eating whatever's left on the plate..n tt consisted of onions chilli cucumber n lettuce..sick rite??...n udaya din kenna la..until the END..haha..but thr was nothing much left..i was damn sway..kenna lyk nobodys business..haha..the 2nd time i ate i spat it out..cldnt eat it no more..it sucked..haha..then after tt ard 9++ went to send udaya off..then bought banana..went hm..n attemtped to stay up till late..at 2 i cldnt take it anymore..been feeling bloody tired these past few days..God...SERIOUS SERIOUS lack of slp man..quite bad actually..
been missing monan SO badly these few wks...i duno..im over the whole liking thing..n i think im glad we fought last yr nov n only strted toking recently..it changed things smehow...n the fact tt we're both older now...n i juz miss him..miss having his presence..i duno..he can do the stupidest things to make me laugh..to make me feel better..its juz a fren lvl now..thank God.. (: ...i miss him..n he promised to come back asap.. (:
went for driving the past 2 days..n Jamal took me on sat again..was so fricking happy to see him..haha..n he let me go on the roads..used upto gear 4..YAY-NESS...haha..but was pretty much scared..drove along thomson.. (: it was juz damn damn damn fun la really..but sun's lesson another guy took me n refused to let me on the roads..n i almost killed the gardener of SSDC..i swear i HATE inner lanes..i really do..n driving in the ciruit is sucha pain..cuz i hafta go really slow..n it doesnt help wen ur stupid accelerator pedal is STIFF...bloody hell..the car was jerking n rattling lyk mad today..so irritating..todays's lesson was draining again..i duno whether its juz the side effects of wakin up early after slping late or really driving in the circuit is juz tiring...i juz hope nxt fri's lesson isnt lyk tt..God PLEASE let it be good..
ive been thinking abt so much stuff lately..mind's really really clogged up..i duno la..juz yest i was going smewhr or coming hm frm smewhr...n i thot abt evrything...n i realised tt i cld pick out specific incidents tt contributed to my attitudes/behaviour/manner/whatever la..i duno..its juz suddenly things dawned on me yest...it was quite enlightening but unfortunately tt enlightening moment has left me..so i cant really rem anything..but i kno tt it shed a lot of light on things..y i want certain things to happened..y i detest sme ppl..y i easily love ppl i get to kno[not meet]...y hate is difficult for me esp if ive alrdy loved the person..y i easily get hurt..smetimes i think im too absorbed in my 'non existent' probs..i rem someone telling me this once 'ur really funny..u kno y..cuz all ur probs r self induced'..n the same person said this as well 'ur juz immune rite..ur lyk a stone u kno..no reaction..no feelings..no emotions..no nothing'...am i really feelingless??or do i portray myself to be lyk tt??..
k i REALLY haf to stop now im having sucha damned splitting headache n i cannot take it anymore..its the lack of sleep i swear..the more i think abt wad i wana rite the more i feel lyk my head's gona explode n my eyes r gona pop out of their sockets...
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