Friday, April 14, 2006
so i finally went to church after many mths...
so i finally wished my mum HAPPY BIRTHDAY after 18 yrs...
the former wasnt as rewarding as the latter..but yea..wishing my mum was gd..tho i din wish her in person..kinda juz smsed her right after she left the hse..quite funny la..cuz she sent back a REALLY retarded msg...read it after assembly..never knew my mum was this crazy la seriously..may be getting her n my dad belated bday presents...
anway church was ok la...was having goosebumps during the shadow play which was quite ok...i really do miss doing stuff lyk tt..getting involved in church n stuff...but nvm..othr than tt nothing much..din really feel anything oso..so yea..
anyway i was thinking the othr day n it sorta dawned on me y i cant forget the issue..it took me quite sme time before i actually realised it but yea i managed to figure it out..n it really does make a whole lotta sense to me..but i dun really kno wad to do la..im still feeling lost n confused..i dun wana tok abt it cuz ppl will think tt im juz harping on the issue...n tt im juz confusing myself further..but i guess u guys juz duno how it feels yea..
right now im making too many commitments..im kinda bloody screwed up la..really duno if im gona be staying back for night study once grandma's in spore..n somemore i need my fricking social life back seriously..i want it back...i dun...somehow the dance is freaking me out...its another damn competition...hais..seriously..practising for this n studying n studying my life away..goodness...
my health is seriously deteriorating..is tt how u spell it?..PMSing so fricking badly the whole wk..but ttz besides the pnt...my health...im still sick even after taking the fcking medicines...i seriously feel lyk juz using the pump n pumping out the damn phlegm n mucus..sorry for the crap but yea i really juz wana do it cuz im having difficulty breathing...UGHS!
i //young of the butterfly// you 12:49 AM