Friday, December 30, 2005
OH MY LORD!...30th of DEC..funny..it feels lyk the yr is not gona end smehow...hais...
gona sit down n think abt the yr so far..dun wana spend new yrs alone...duno wad to do..still wondering if i shld go church...
dance....coming along fine...juz think tt im gona bring down the standard of the dance..udaya's juz perfect...she dances so beautifully...but not me...guess i really am a bamboostick dancing..juz hope i dun screw up wid 400 ppl watching me...frm left right centre n TOP....good Lord help me...
seriously i think the only thing tt makes me wana stay in CJ is doing this ICS stuff..i haf half a mind to fail my As...i hate CJ tt much...it was seriously the biggest mistake of my life..the only reason y im looking forward to sch is the whole dance n Ruthra show...i hate my life so much..gona be seeing dumbass mrs sng again...bitch...n my class is prolly gona be split...not looking forward to tt...dun wana do any hw or tutorials tho i haf to...will prolly sit down on mon night n try to finish it...
praveena has got no sense of self discipline or time management...she ought to shoot her fricking self...wth is she doing in a damn JC?...she herself has no idea...trust me she has no idea...she wishes tt she cld do 2005 all over again...prolly go back to the very first day...n change evrything frm then...
im so scared tt nxt yr will be lyk 2005 all screwed up...its gona be 2006 in one day time...n im not at all prepared or ready...fear and what nots step in...i will be 18 in a few days time...n then i will haf more responsibility...my parents grow older so do i...n evrything changes....evrything...
i //young of the butterfly// you 9:30 PM