Monday, December 19, 2005
recording is over...church drama is over...orchard thingie is over...
feels lyk evrything is over...but carolling isnt over..evrythings tiring me so badly...n at hm sitting down n trying to come up wid dance steps...trying to think abt my J2 yr..trying to sit down n attempt my hw...but never doing anything....n instead unnecessary thoughts crop up...worries and sorrows...
feel my self esteem oozing out of me evryday...feel myself juz worrying n worrying abt evrything...feel so unwanted n useless....i duno y..feel lyk using the fing penknife again...
mum has been giving me a lot of attitude lately n i duno how to deal wid it...i think im going nuts...with the way i juz keep things to myself...am dreading going back to tt bloody CJ...the place which i fing hate so damn bloody much...
the Fs r prolly back frm today onwards....
i //young of the butterfly// you 11:53 PM