Monday, December 12, 2005
its lyk 13th of dec...so much has happened n yet i juz cant/dun wana blog it...its all too personal..but thrs juz this one thing
the problem lies with this thing called PRAVEENA..these 8 alphabets make up a name which in turn makes up a person..n ttz none other than me..n if this person doesnt change or at least try to change her character she is really not gona go anywhr...n ive given much thought to this...i need to change my character..im not saying it for fun or anything...its a fact...its smth which ive been thinking abt since the start of 2005...n its gona be the end soon...ive seen sme changes..mostly negative...hardening myself...smetimes believing n smetimes not....i cant think of others rite now...but i really wish ppl wld smetimes look beyond all this..thr might be a nice me underneath evrything u kno...n my really good fren tol me tt i had a heart of stone..i dun disagree nor agree...its a half half..i do think tt smetimes my heart is so hard tt i can be feelingless n not give a thot abt others...but at othr times my heart is so soft and i feel evrything...n i mean it..im the kinda person who wen loves,loves whole heartedly and wen hates,hates whole heartedly..im lyk tt...n i cant help it...but thrs a few problems wid me...n wen i talked to my fren abt it...both of us understood the problem[PRAVEENA] n we kno the solution...but im not letting myself change..or rather i dun wana...id rather juz remain who i am so tt whoever wants to hate me can hate me...n whoever wants to love me can love me...but ttz not gona get me anywhr...im gona be the quiet person ard ppl i duno n be MYSELF ard the ppl i kno..this is juz me but so many ppl haf tol me i need to change this...
only zana knows wad im talking abt...i juz felt i had to rite this down cuz i haf no time wid my diary...
i //young of the butterfly// you 1:45 AM