Monday, November 14, 2005
k now i kno y i was so depressed yest..
had quite sme fun yest at the deepavali show...suse auntie wanted me to follow her..but i can tell u it was great...msian DJs frm THR Raaga came to host it...n they were so damn good..i really admire them for being so entertaining n hilarious...they did tis thingie on chandramukhi n anniyan..it was good..and all 3 of them cld do the 3 roles of vikram in anniyan..n the dj who acted as REMO looked like REMO in anniyan...well on the whole it was SUPERB..the best one ive ever been to...but on the othr hand i did miss my hindi movie which im fricking sad abt..but ive vowed to get the VCD..i dun care..i so love the movie so im gona get it...
well anwyays cousins are gona be leaving soon..for india...well tt really depresses me...my hols r usually spent wid them n tis time they r gona go...they'll be back by dec 10 but smehow it juz makes me sad..i rem how initially we were all supposed to go but now...well fuck evrything la..im really in a sad mood rite now..
2nd of all the econs paper is really bringing me down...i duno wad to do..im desperate enuff to cheat n yet not cheat...not making sense am i??...but im fricking scared n frightened...im juz so scared of failing the paper....n rite now thrs a lot of things tt i cld say..n it wld hurt a lot of my classmates..but i seriously really think tt sme of them juz dun deserve to be promoted...i think i deserve to be promtoed...but even if i bring my case to tt ass of a principal he wld prolly juz tell me to get lost in his most 'nicest' way...life is never fair...never..
n not to mention i haven toked to chris in a long time..well since smetime before deepavali..im upset wid her for getting back wid joshua again...but im not in the position to say anything rite?well even if i am i cant..if she is happy she is..n if not happy then im not..we cant do anything abt tt..i duno..maybe we juz dun haf time now to meet n tok...she hardly comes online anymore..forget it..tis is getting me nowhere..n tis is so dumb.
christmas is another big issue for me..who to spend it wid??..priya or chris...i duno..i dun wana go to chris's church as much as i wana go..im not making sense??..dun even try to understand a girl who is spilling..im so confused...i duno wad to do...well lemme get over tis monthly visitor n then maybe i'll be clearer..
priya's father's msg yest freaked me out bad..n smehow death is stuck in my mind rite now..i duno wad to say really...but tis juz in my mind the stuff i wana say..n i guess since its really private i will juz haf another appointment wid my diary...
i //young of the butterfly// you 2:03 PM