Sunday, August 28, 2005
SAT was great..
morning had tuition wid ananthi...i think ananthi is really funny..the IJ element is still in her man..seriously...she is juz damn nice la...so drama n funny...then she tells me abt her NTU experiences n all..they're really funny la...n she tells me abt all the weird ppl thr..n her weird PW ppl...hahaha....madness..
after tt went to chris's hse to borrow clothes again...missed her so much..haven seen her in lyk ages..so long man...hais..but luckily i got to spend time wid her...
after tt went to mr muthu hse...i miss having so much of fun thr..n i miss jeffrey..so long never see him..maybe aftr promos me jay ash him shld go back together..then can crap lyk nobody's business..fun fun fun...i miss lyk being wid them ..juz being thr was so fun..i mean we did our studying n all wad...n we did do quite ok for the Os...hais juz miss all of them..n i think mr muthu was one person who made a huge huge impact in my life...hais...miss the whole atmosphere...
well after tt went to salon for treatment..n then dinner..toked abt aussie over dinner again...not vry nice la..i mean i feel super fucked up after hearing wad my mum said..i understand her situation but then again if it carries on i will never be able to achieve my dreams..im selfish n being a bitch i kno..but i'll feel lyk crap if i were to sacrifice my dreams for my bros...dun ask me..im juz damn sad abt it...n i mean its at times lyk this i really really question God y cldnt He haf made us richer...i dun want the money for a big hse or a car or anything EXCEPT education for my bros n me...ttz all really..i juz want to go aussie n study...n come back n give my parents a WONDERFUL life...but.........................i dun think its gona happen..im juz lying to myself evrytime i say im gona go..im gona go..its a lie to myself....n i telling u sme rich asses can afford to screw up their studies n go overseas cuz they haf the damned money...but i dun screw up n i so bady wana go overseas but i cant cuz thrs no money..God will u ever help me?
today went church wid priya...after tt went FEP wid her n ruby..quite fun la..missed walking ard FEP wid ppl...juz spending a long long long long time thr...bought rubber bands...felt lyk buying all the jewellery but not lyk im gona wear clothes to suit them..so yea..juz needing to buy shoes n bags...shoulder bags but big enuff to hold all my stuff...maybe can drag mum to buy one on sat...suta n all came over today...but i slept wen they came..haha..was fricking tired..neways gona mug after tis...cant send my EoM to miss chok..am so screwed..
monan's coming back nxt month..duno wen...promos r also coming nxt month..he always comes back at the wrong times..but at least he comes back..
got so much to say right now but i really need to go study...ARGHS....
i //young of the butterfly// you 8:41 PM