Thursday, July 21, 2005
vry pissed off wid racist fuckers in CJ..hey go fuck n die la ok...all the chinese who also love making fun of indians can go fuck n die oso..cuz u guys juz piss me off...sorry if im being racist myself...dun see why i cant be one wen thr r MANY out thr being racists..........
had a not so gd day today..was the only one wearing costume in my class...felt so so so weird...lyk an xtra...i duno juz din feel in..then oso the ICS thing anothr one...wasnt really included in the ICS stuff..not pissed la..juz confused tt those not even in ICs were involved but those in ICS din kno nothing...n thr was one DOG who gave me MAJOR attitude..was damn anrgy la..i mean he was the one who din hold the garbage bag properly n so the bowl ended up on the floor...n even wen i apologised he gave me this fck face..gawd..grow up la bastard..took fotos wid sme indian girls n wid renu oso...a memory..a beautiful memory..well she has grown into sucha beatiful lady..of course im jealous...well lucky for me sara was at the ICS booth..luckily k..then he juz kept me company through out.....he thinks im always drunk..i duno y...n he says i cant walk in a straight line..n i think my migraine is really getting to me..cuz he asked me a ques n i cldnt ans it n a few secs lata i was asking him wad he asked me..i duno..i freaked myself out la..i was juz so blur....n in monan's hse i took so long to understand wadever he was saying...
after sch went to monan's hse even tho i was so freaking tired...been going to his hse evryday this whole wk except on wed...tmw dun think i will go..but mite meet him or smth...gosh i went thr n slept...hais...then he sent me hm n went out...n thank god this morn he called me or not i wld haf missed the CJ bus stop..sara forgot n took the earlier bus...anyways yea...was talking to monan...was telling him how messed up n all i feel..n he keeps telling me i need a brk..i duno how to take a brk anymore..thrs no more space for brks or relaxation in my life...but then again i go to his hse rite...isnt tt a form of relaxation...i duno..im not making sense anymore am i?...well yea...duno la..dun care..he is leaving nxt wk..it sux la..wish he wldnt leave but he has to..n after he finishes his diploma he prolly has to stay on to do his degree n his dad will prolly lay down lotsa conditions.....i will die if he is unable to come down to spore anymore...n hopefully wen i leave for india n by the time i come back he is still here..n aussie..i think im gona let my mum read the email soon...
had a freaking nightmare last night..woke up crying...not gona say who isit abt....but its lyk ppl in CJ...hais..scary...n i better get back my sari n punjabi suit in one piece...
i //young of the butterfly// you 8:24 PM