Wednesday, July 13, 2005
pms sux..cuz im pmsing badly..wid cramps n gastric n headache..wana pon tmw..but dun think i will..am juz sleep deprived..but ttz only wad i think..but i dun think im sleep deprived..i cant be sleep deprived..r u mad??..gosh..ive been studying lately n its freaking me out..did maths differentiation tutorial..well it was fun..n lso did a bit of econs n lit..gosh..scary man..bu ti hafta fricking buck up..i think im gona tell my mum to put a password for the com..so i wun haf anything to do..i really need to start mugging..promos r in lyk sept..n i need my A for maths n A/B for lit..n a bloody B/C for ec ons..i will cry if i fail econs again..n im gona take ananthi's tuition..ive made up my mind..will go ahead wid it whether mum allows or not..am not exactly happy wid my mid yr results..cuz niva beat me in EVERY single fcking subject..so im pissed..yea i may be niva's fren but dya kno wad??..her dad loves to BULLSHIT..n he BULLSHITS to my uncle..n MY uncle MY BLOOD believes him rather than me..so i gotta juz prove it to them tt im juz smarter..way way smarter..musnt let her beat me anymore..im gona make sure i do better than her for promos..i WILL do it..VISUALISE...
anyway yea..PE i hafta start my conditioning alrdy..well tt sux..think my thighs haf grown fatter over the hols..am gona push myself for running..n i will fcking kill mr foo if i haf big thighs by the 2 yrs in CJ..cuz he is making me do the GS..fck man..arghsssssssssss....i hate this..y am i a fat pig who cant jump n do inclined??Y?Y?Y?Y?Y?Y?Y?Y?Y?Y?...........................BLEAHS...not fair..
tuition boys r pissing mr muthu off..n u kno wad...fariha is a bitch..she only cares for herself n herself..bitch..all these bangla ppl r juz the same u kno...fariha..shanto..sadia n nafis..they're all shits..i mean they distract evrybody in tuition n then go hm n MUG..go hm n seriously study..its horrible u kno..n wen sadia found out i got higher than her for maths..gosh u shld haf seen her face..n bloody fariha comes crying wen she gets an A2 for emaths..gosh shut the fuck up bitch..i mean she is fcking gona end up wid 6pnts..so wth?????i dun fcking care abt fariha..the onyl 2 ppl im concerned for this yr is jan n kart..i dun care abt fariha..evrytime i come for tuition the standard ques she'll ask is 'is JC fun?'..fck u la..come n see for urself la..maybe u shld go to NJ then u can haf PLENTY of fun wid AHEM....pisses me off man..n she freaked out for her Os last yr itself..gosh these ppl r sickening man..juz plain irritating..
gastric is really becoming vry vry bad..feel lyk dying man..met priya juz now..haha..n we were both so tired tt we started toking shit in the bus..more lyk I started toking shit..gosh n we were so loud tt the lady sitting in front of us got pissed n moved front..n rpiya was lyk 'this is spore get used to it'..n we burst out laughing for tt..u see we haf no life..yea n all of a sudden she was lyk 'parna imagine YOU being married n having kids...gosh wad a horrible thought'..n i din say anything cuz i was super blur i started whning cuz i din understand wad was going on..then lyk minutes lata lata i understood evrything..haha..i duno la..im really tired n been feeling vry cold lately too..
i realised sme of my blog entries dun exactly reflect my thoughts..maybe ttz cuz evrything goes into my diary..all my thoughts on love,rtshps,frens,frenships,ppl i meet..juz abt evrything..maybe the blog is here to help me keep sme happy memories..lyk evrytime wen i meet ppl n wad happens..
i //young of the butterfly// you 10:56 PM