Sunday, July 10, 2005
YIPIN MY DARLING HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U..I LOVE U SO MUCH N AM MISSING U LOADS!!!!!!!
ok quite a few things haf happened
-MONAN'S BACK!!!!!!!
-CHRIS IS ALSO BACK FRM CAMP
-mid yrs r over
-waiting for results
-failed econs MCQ
-thought abt SO much of stuff
haha..yea..MONAN is back..im so freaking happy..n guess wad??its his bday tmw..YAY..hopefully chris follows me..then maybe we can go over n get him a small cupcake or smth..haha..we love doing tt..(:(:(:..well yea..i think he is leaving soon..n prolly coming back again evry month..gosh miss him so much..n chris also..haven spoke to her in one wk..n hafta update her on the class situation..chris im missing u..arghs i love the both of them i miss them so much..
went to priya's chruch today..i LOVED the worship man...it was really good..but the service i was super lost cuz it was all in tamil..gosh ttz how bad my tamil is...might go nxt wk..cuz her dad is giving the testimony on his trip to china..well..see how first..
n yea mid yrs...wad to do..wads done is done..will study hard for promos..lyk wad monan said prioritise..so im gona do it..n make sure i get wad i want..n i think i will be taking up ananthi's offer for econs tuition..need it badly..since i dun even understand DD n SS..i think..i duno i juz cant use it to ans essay ques..duno la..need a min B for econs for promos..hope i get it..n lit is gona be lyk 3 bks or 4 i think..BUT i WILL do well..
going to india on 20th nov..duno wen im coming back..but yea evrything's confirmed alrdy so yea..duno la..wid the fcking tension in my family right now..duno how it will be..n my aunties are lyk distancing frm each othr..so its bad i guess..i duno wads gona happen by nov..hais..n i din speak to logita AT ALL tt day wen we went for anniyan...im really disgusted by her behaviour la..i mean she dresses lyk a TYPICAL mangamma..BLACK BLACK..two STUPID feelers...the walk oso one kind..lyk catwalking lyk tt..gosh..nvm..she is my cousin..i shall try my vry best to overlook all this..
after my period medication..am prolly gona try doing the esther fast..maybe on a fri sat sun..see how it goes..n ive decided to work on my abs..n my arms..u kno tt day wen i went out wid mel, i tried on the baleno Vneck i wanted to get..u kno i cld wear an S..but its cuz my arms cant fit ttz y i hafta get a bigger size..n pls do not gimme crap lyk 'no ur arms r not fat'.....i kno how it looks lyk..n i kno it is fat..well will get my abs first..cuz after wad monan said im so motivated..haha..
met him juz now for abt 3 hrs..n well his frens still think i lyk him..hais..duno la..esp michael n joshua..well nvm..met him n juz talked n talked n talked n talked at the void deck..tol him abt the timothy thing n he laughed la..well yea i kno he doesnt kno wad to do..BAHHHH...but i need to kno wad to do..but yea haf i said i miss him..i think wad me chris n him share is really smth to be treasured..i mean at anywhr anytime we juz manage to understand each othr..n even tho he is in msia...he is thr for us u kno..evrytime i needed to tok he's juz put aside his studies juz to make me feel better..same goes for chris..n also chris does tt for me..i thank God for ppl lyk them..
n my beloved charles n keith sandals tore..gosh..im so heartbroken..i think its been lyk 2 yrs..ARGHS...well mum gave me 50 to buy 2 new ones..am gona get the butterfly one..n prolly jay's one..then maybe save up my money n get my old ones..cuz they were juz so so so comfy..i miss them..i hate the slippers im using..irritating..
watched mr n mrs smith oso today..n nxt movies are
// CHARLIE AND THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY
// HARRY POTTER 4
// BEWITCHED
but priya wants to watch dark water..i'll juz DIE..u kno im not scared but after tt i juz start imagining things..its lyk i start to remember scary scenes frm the movies..then i get scared..ok i duno whether u get it but nvm..n im gona make sure one of these movies im gona watch wid my cousins..n me n chris still got a movie date but i think she is bz studying..gosh how i hate poly terms...poly sux cuz of the weird terms..n tis yr she will also be having sch during christmas..so will i..i mean during deepavali tt is..bleahs..duno if we will be celebrating..but im in a baking mood so maybe tis yr i mite make all the titbits..
oh yea abt the class thing..its tis timothy who is pissing me off..i kno wad type of a girl i am..n to be very honest..yes i HATE all of u guys out thr..i DUN trust ANY of u..i dun at all...the only guy i trust n trust wholeheartedly is monan..no one else..i tol chris abt how i feel abt all this rtshp stuff..i tol her y i hate guys..y im also scared of them..gosh u kno guys r juz liable to molest a girl anytime..n yea im not afraid to admit im freaking scared of tt..yea i dun wana feel cheap or used..but even wen a guy juz comes too close to me n its smeone whom i fcking hate i start feeling used..n i tol vasan so many times..i dun feel angry..i feel so fcking down tt i juz wana brk down at tt pnt in time..it sux u kno..no one will ever kno how i feel..n ttz exactly wad timothy has been doing..he sickens/disgusts me..he is juz gross..ive never known a guy lyk him man..never..n its PLAINLY disgusting..ok yea maybe ALL guys watch porn..whatever..but timothy is sick..wid the ques he has asked a few girls in the class its no fricking wonder y most of them dun lyk him..n same goes..i dun lyk him cuz of his sorta pervertedness..but u kno wad i juz try to be nice..n tis is wad i get in return..lyk wad priya said maybe i shld stop being a mother theresa..im juz gona knee him in his groin one of these days n make him lose his manhood..i swear..bastard..i was juz cursing n swearing at him..n i kno monan was kinda pissed off too..but he din kno wad to do..he was lyk 'im really sorry da..i duno wad to say'..fuck man..im not gona scold monan for tt..i wun..but im juz so scared..tt one day he will molest me or touch me whr i feel uncomfortable..i hate it wen guys juz touch me for nothing..esp guys whom i hate n feel uncomfy wid..i really dun lyk it..but im juz so frightened it will happen wid the way he has been behaving..n its freaking me out..i really feel lyk juz crying..cuz i feel lyk a loser..does anyone haf any idea wad to do??
i //young of the butterfly// you 10:46 PM