Sunday, June 12, 2005
i juz wish my mum wld stop being so fickle..im sick of her saying 'oh i mite juz take up some courses in aussie so we can get our PR n migrate thr'..she has been saying it since i was 10 but never doing it..n lyk wad ani aunty said my mum only thinks abt migrating wen ani aunty toks to her abt it but wen ani aunty stops it stops wid my mum too..ani aunty wants the best for my mum n for me..my mum shld listen to her..as it is my mum is stressed up frm work..ani aunty has 6 or 7 kids n hell she is living life comfortably thr working 5 days a wk..im not saying wen we immediately go thr things will get better..yea it'll take time but it will do her n us gd...n my mum cant even make up her mind whether to sen me thr b4 my As..really im sick of evrything here..juz sick...family got probs...so much of fcking probs n i hafta be responsible for all of my cousins..n my sch life im hating it..my social life is no more..my frens r all juz gone..im sick of everything u kno..really sick..n lyk i said me wanting to go to aussie is me wanting to run away frm evrything..i dun think wen i go aussie things will be fine..i dun think it will..but it will juz do me some gd..cuz i need a brk..i really need one..ani aunty is leaving on tues...n wen she leaves evry positive thing in my life will leave wid her..n tt juz sux..i swear i wish my mum wld sit down n take some fucking time to think n sort out her damn life n mine..all she can do is think tt she is gona die frm the stress at work..aiyah..whatever la..
i //young of the butterfly// you 1:26 PM