Tuesday, May 03, 2005
MELODAYE 12th MAY IS FINE WID MAYE..ASK JO TO COME TOO..THEN WAYE CAN GO TOGETHER N MAKE ALOT OF NOISE LYK TROYYYYYYYY..ACTUALLAYE IT WAS JUZ MAYE MAKING NOISE DURING THE MOVAYE..THINK TWICE ABT GOING WID MAYE K??LUBX U..I WANA TOK TO U AGAIN..I MISS U..SOBX..IM SUCH A LOSER..REPLY ON UR BLOG KAYE..WILL VISIT IT SINCE FUCKING[MAJOR MAJOR CAPS] TAGBAORD REFUSES TO CO-OPERATE WID ME..SCREW U TAGBOARD WE GOT BLOGS..HAHA..STUPID SHIT..RANDOM THOUGHTS
-tagboard's fucked up n pissing me off...stupid shit
-failed as a GP rep..disappointd in myself..juz wasnt bothered to do the essay outline..n the whol class takes me as a role model in GP cuz im the rep..im supposed to haf done ALL my GP work..im sorry miss chok..hais..it sux..
-fricking looks nicer spelt this way than freaking..
-russell peters ROXORSMYSOXORS..anybody else kno who is??
-ran 2.4 in 14.37..duno whether to be happy or sad?..was expecting better..din push myself..
-jo's amused by morning walks..i love it cuz it gives me a chance to catch up wid my babes
-SARA n PRIYA actually KNO who russell peters is..
-met edrea this morn..was so so so so SUPER DUPER happy..hehe..
okies..now sch wasnt sucha bitch today except tt in the morn ian freaked me out by not smiling at me at all..so kinda thot he was angry..but lata i found out he wasnt..cephas said in a vry sincere manner 'u shld haf come for the bbq'..vry vry sincere..tim was being fucking disgusting..melvyn reminds me of monan..haha..monan n his sick ways..but dun worry i will NEVER fall for melvyn..talked wid michelle quite a bit today..she the only othr sane person in the class..my class gets along better wid HER frens..fuck u..PE was ok..except for the guys..i think thr was a mess for bose's rounds..hope its ok..cuz now he is only getting a silver n he needs a gold..ok ttz not ok..melvyn's being nice..i mean he is perverted but at least i kno he is making the effort to 'include' me so to speak..tmw got PW..am i happy?..i duno...feel so miserable for GP..gona be getting private tuition frm miss chia for maths..cant stand mr chai's teaching..fuck him la..asshole..prolly gona take an hr to complete hlf a ques..either tt..or do one ques in 10secs..UGHS..so irritating..drowning in the amt of econs hw..am really really tired..body aches..mind is constantly occupied wid incline pull ups n SBJ..mite juz cry if i dun get it..
ive been thinking abt the class recently..maybe i shld give them a chance cuz i can see a few of them are making the effort to include me n stuff la..i can see tt..but on my part i think im not allowing it..as in i refuse their 'help'..u get it..i duno..i can see melvyn ian audrey n william making quite a bit of effort to lyk make me feel more in..but im not sure..i mite juz be interpreting it wrongly..mel's lyk toking to me more..will also..ian keeps lyk making funny gestures cuz im EASILY amused..audrey asks me to join them for lunch/dinner/movies whatever..i duno..i really duno..smehow deep down inside i fele guilty cuz i kno thr r ppl who arent invited n i dun want them to feel hurt wen they find out abt it la..today mich accidentally went to tell pearl abt the bbq..pearl immediately lyk knew tt she was one of those who wasnt invited..it was bad la..cuz i oso felt vyr rotten cuz jy also wasnt invited..i duno whether she was hurt by it but i think pearl mite haf been..i may lyk go out wid the rest for lunch n movies n stuff but u kno thrs juz this tiny voice in my head going 'prav thr othrs who r still left out'..n i feel its my duty to speak up for them la..no matter how bitchy/irritating the 'leftovers' may be...we are stuck wid them for 2yrs..n it is our duty to juz bond as a class n overlook all this negative attitudes cuz each of us posses them..am i making sense??i juz feel tt i need to speak up for the 'leftovers' k..i dun exactly lyk a few of them too..got my reasons...but i dun show it alrdy la..wid vanessa i really toned down..really..i really duno wen i will be able to go out for a class outing happily n not lyk complain or be angry wid them for not inviting the othrs..make the effort ppl..dun say u wana CONFRONT them..thrs nothing to confront juz overlook it n make the effort..ttz wad im doing..n it took me sme time to do it u kno..really..but i am making the effort..i hope God brings me thru this..
she seemed abit pissed today..shld shut my mouth n not tok so much..but i cant help it...hehe..me n my big mouth..maybe i shld control..
sch was bearable today..only cuz i saw jo n pinks many times..hehe..n met edrea in the morn..n went for morn walks wid fran..n saw CLARE...omg..haha..clare's gona be my eye candy frm today onwards..hehe..amstill bugged by the fact tt he aint here..but i tried not to think abt it..tried my best to get it out of my mind..succeeded a bit..but by the end of the day my mind was on him alrdy..esp during 2.4 run..hais..
ciaos for now..gotta complete my fucking econs..i swear im having a damned fucking migrane now..my heads feels lyk its gona burst n wen it try to massage it its lyk i got blue blacks all over so its damn painful to press..my head feels lyk its tightening..OMG..brain tumour..shit..its fucking pain..
i //young of the butterfly// you 10:03 PM