Thursday, May 26, 2005
i am NOT PMS-ing lyk wad u think ok??..i kno i PMS 24/7 but u kno wad..this time im not..surprising??..NO..fuck it..cuz im really pissed wid a lot of things..so i suggest u dun read this entry if u dun wana see a lot of fucks again..yeas..n i kno wad u will think after reading this entry..'yea tell me wen is she ever happy??she's always sad or depressed or angry.n wen doesnt she ever use fuck??'..get tt fcking thot out of ur mind..u haf NO fcking rights to think of me lyk tt..no fcking rights ok??..i can feel whatever i want to cuz i haf MY rights..i dun give a damn if u hate me..i dun..so u juz dun give a damn if i hate u too..ok??..wait its not me asking u nicely its me ORDERING u..WHATEVER..
ok yeas..we haf distanced..im sure of it..very very sure..maybe im the one putting the distance..i duno..no actually i dun think i am the one..*'s the one putting the distance between us..i kno it..its * not me..ive been trying so hard all this while..but really thrs nothing..nothing at all..i fcking wana cry cuz i feel lyk ive lost yet anothr person..actually its not juz the both of us..thr r many more also..whom ive lost touch wid..
my hp is spoilt..terribly spoilt..i duno wad to do..i dun wana be untrustworthy n juz draw money frm my bank acct n get a new one..i want a job..so i can work for it or smth..im shit depressed ok..
my PW grp is ok..juz tt wen i go for meeting
they leave me n her out..but its not so bad so she din need to go back since the meeting was in her hse..but i had to go back wid them..n they really really made me feel so left out..i felt lyk complete shit..n yea i WAS sulking cuz i WAS angry..wid u guys ok..ANGRY..i looked fierce cuz i AM fierce..bloody FUCK..enuff of comments abt my fucked up face alrdy ok??..enuff..i KNO for a fact my face is fucked up..shut ur fucking mouth abt it can??FUCK..
n mr muthu bday..evrything is a SCREW up..cuz evrybody fucking cancelled on me last min..i din spend 60bucks for nothing u kno u fucking assholes..n now chris tells me 2kg cake is for a whole class..fuck..im pissed ok..really pissed..cuz evrything is a mess..im so fcking broke..jay cant join us for dinner..jeff isnt even coming..n some bastard in tuition wants to go tok to him[not jeff]..yea tok..fuck u la assholes..motherfucking fuckers..u two esp..fuckers fuckers fuckers..
n SHE..u kno wad??if she aint gona tok to me properly then i got no wish to tok to her properly also..she is blowing evrything up..ok??..ur blowing it up??u hear me?..to u its fine but to others it ISNT..accept tt..u understand??..thr ur bloody bro bugs me..n now he wants to approach him..WHATEVER ok??..naturally siblings take each othrs side..DUH!!!!to ur bro wad u did wasnt wrong..but u kno wad??to othrs it was..i dun give a FUCK anymore..cuz im so so so so damn fucking pissed at the 2 of u..fuck u guys la..
oh yea n THEY suck too..fuckers..the more i see u guys the more i get disgusted n angry wid u..
n my class..u guys haf made me FUCKING miserable since i started in CJ..save a few..but most of u..n i hate u guys..i swear on the last day of sch i will put HATE notes on ur desk..FUCKERS..n i HOPE i leave CJ n go to aussie..i dun care if im gona miss mel or jo or priya or most of my frens..u kno y??cuz i juz wana fucking get out of CJ..its a fcking shithole..esp wid my class..i fcking hate all of u cowards..
i //young of the butterfly// you 9:59 PM