Wednesday, April 06, 2005
had a not too gd day at sch..wen pinks toked to me i almost cried..i juz hate it la..i cldnt cuz i din wana make a fool out of myself..i broke down once in CJ n ttz enuff..really enuff..i dun wana repeat it anymore..but i cldnt take it juz now man..i really cldnt..i kno how its lyk to feel lonely n stuff..wen i went to JJ for lyk 6hrs or so i cldnt take it..i juz quit u kno..juz quit..in one day..i din even giv myself a wk..but wen i got into CJ for my JAE..i was so happy..but i din kno i wld be in such a class..im juz gona really stone..stone totally..n ignore evrybody..i think ttz wad i gotta do for my two yrs here in CJ..ttz the only thing i think i can do..to help myself..i wana haf all my brks wid t8..so tt i can juz be wid jo n pinks n sadia..
n my eating habits..i swear smth's gona happen to me..my body juz doesnt wana accept any food..n i gotta eat really light..its lyk i practically dun eat anymore..i kno its bad but im really not doing anything to lyk change it or anything..even wen i eat a little i feel so full..i juz drank a cup of coffee n i feel lyk my stomach's gona burst..ughs..
monan's in spore..i think i mentioned..im gona meet him tmw..damn happy..juz cant wait..i really wanted to meet him earlier but he din call..he finally called today so hopefully he will be free tmw or the day after..mayb i'll go to his hse on fri n slack..juz wana relax..went for a movie wid priya today..but i was feeling so guilty the whole time cuz i cld haf gone hme n studied..n i wasted 10bucks on a blooody flop tamil movie..the othr movies were showing too late la..anyways yea now tt im back..gona stay up till 11 doing maths again..i duno wen im gona STUDY for econs n lit man..really duno..
i wanted to go back for ICS today but unfortunately it was cancelled..n moreover i wanted to see mrs alex..hais..i miss her n miss chow n MAG LOW..believe it or not..haha..mag low's zee best..really miss her man..must go n crap wid mrs alex also..
went to sch wid fran n tallie today..felt freaking weird i juz pretended to slp in the bus..i want shanto n sadia to come wid us..i miss them..hmph..well its only one day..haha..but still..so awkward wid juz the 3 of us..hmmmmm...
i think my mum is in a gd mood tis wk..smehow she hasnt bugged me much..she juz keeps telling me to do my wrk..n ive been a VERY gd girl k..haha..n she agreed to go lingerie shopping wid me..OMG!!!...i cant wait..i cant wait..hehe..n she wants to buy me sme energy drink cuz she doesnt want me to fail my promos..juz now i kinda tol her i dun wana go india..they shld juz go if they want..then i tol her my actual reason..my fear of failing my promos..then she was a bit shocked la..but she din say anything..hais..im really gona pass up this chance to visit/tour/whatever sucha beautiful country..n im not gona see my grandma for mayb a few more yrs..hais..i was juz thinking abt her the othr day..sux la..i dun even haf any fotos..:( :(..
i love maths..i do i do i do... (: (: (: (: ...HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
i //young of the butterfly// you 7:45 PM