Saturday, April 02, 2005
im a bit paranoid..ok maybe tooo paranoid..i haven had a gd strt to the yr at all..n within those 3mths tt i din go JC a lot of crap happened..a lot of shit..one after the othr..it was all too much for me to take..it led to a lot of things la..juz a lot..n it was bad..vyr vry bad..n after i was put in tt class i tol myself not to expect a gd yr AT ALL..not AT ALL..n my biggest fear is failing my promos..i juz dun wana repeat my J1..mr muthu still tells me 'if u want it sooooo bad u can get it'..n i kno its true..but w/o him thr to push n push me it seems almost impossible..he tol me to do SUPER well for my first test so as to prove to the class im not sucha shit..maths not much of a worry..econs also not much of a worry..but lit n GP r my MAJOR MAJOR worries..cuz i dun think my language is upto a JC standard..i think its still stuck in sec2 or smth..i need mel's help..badly..evry sat or smth go her hse n really take lessons frm her..i need it..
its lyk my mum keeps asking me whether i wana go india at the end of the yr..honestly i duno..i mean if i fail my promos i dun think id wana go india n if i pass id rather juz sit hme n study for the nxt yr..seriously..cuz im taking As VERY seriously..but also i wana see my grandma so badly..n she said she has decided to stay thr forever la..n if i do pass my promos n i actually wana go thr for awhile,i cant tell my mum AFTER the promos..it'd be too late to bk a ticket..i duno man..im confused..
yest i had LOADS n LOADS of fun..seriously..LOADS..haha..tuition gathering..me jay ash jan sadia shanto n fariha..pity jeffrey cldnt come la..so long oso never see him..we all wanted to see him in his bus conductor uni..haha..n shanto was damn nice la..cuz he knew tt i wasnt really getting along wid my class n he tol me manjen jokes to make me happier..haha..oh oh oh n shanto said i lost weight..hehe..im happy im happy..actually quite a lot of ppl said i lost weight..but i dun believe it cuz i think my clohes r juz vry baggy now..back to him cracking jokes..its damn crappy la..i think ah mayb SJI is quite racist also la n he knows how it feels..n he knows lyk ALOT of racist jokes..damn mean la..im not racist k..i giv respect to those who also giv respect to me..they dun i oso dun..simple as tt..haha..but they made me happier..haha..n mayb i haven forgotten how to crap/smile anymore..it was damn fun..n shanto is also quite dirty minded..so he was telling a few sick jokes too.. mr muthu juz sat thr in silence n laughed la..i mean he cant do much to a rowdy gamg of lyk 7..haha..n im so happy i got to see ash..really..so long never see her...n her sch uni ROCKS k..its a micro mini skirt..n i want it too.u kno she tol us tt if any students in JJ wears their skirt too long the teachers make them shorten it..u kno how cool is tt?...her skirt is fucking nice..n its straight la not ly k CJ's..CJ's skirt SUX..i tried it yest..mans...i lyk the top cuz its SUPER baggy..but the SKIRT SUX!..its lyk comes out..n mr muthu said its ugly cuz of tt fold thingie in the middle..HMPH..i dun lyk the uni..haha..n i was telling evrybody how insecure i feel if i dun manage to see my knees..haha..shit me man..haha..but yeas..yest was terribly fun..mayb in dec or smth..wen EVERYBODY's exams are/is over, we will juz go out to sme park or smth..n sit thr n CRAP majorly..i wld love to do tt..haha..juz all of us..n shanto can make as much noise as he wants..hahaha..n nowadays sadia n shanto take the same bus as us..its damn fun la..haha..in tt way i will be able to see shanto..last time wen i used to go for tuition he always wun come la..then so long never see him until tt day in the bus..haha..was quite happy..n me n sadia keep making fun of fran n tallie..HAHAHAHA..major fun..shit..i think ive been having too much fun..hehe..nvm nvm..never hurts to haf fun..
OMG..my ears are SPOILT again..shit shit shit..arghs.. i hate it wen tt happens..
ive got lotsa hmewrk to complete this wkend..GP,lit, n my rev for maths..hais..wonder wen they r gona do the wrk in the first three mths..n anyways we had this mass thingie in CJ yest for welcoming us into the family..haha..i miss mass...loads..but they din haf the peace thingie..haha i remember how in IJ evrybody wld go ard hugging evrybody..i miss tt..n they din do it yest..im gona make sure nxt time during mass me jo n pinks sit together..JO PINKS MUST SIT TOGETHER K!!!!..:):)..or not i will be so lonely..:(:(..hehe..no la..i hope my class becomes better..
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