Wednesday, April 27, 2005
i love my two besties who make me soooooooooooooo happy n make me feel lyk myself all over again..I LOVE U JO N MEL!!..haha..was so glad tt i met mel n jo today..poor jo has three tests tmw while i finished all of mine..thank God..am hoping to pass the econs test at least..din draw any diagrams n tt juz freaked me out cuz laureen n bose did..
got PW grps today..im quite ok wid my grp..not sad definitely..im only sad cuz i din get the grp i wanted..the more i stay in t09 the more im starting to hate the class..with evrybody being so choosy over the ppl they want..ok i also chose the ppl i wanted but ifu had put me wid them i wldnt haf complained..not at all.but
she did..im not gona say who..but i was shocked cuz i din expect her of all ppl to complain..michelle i understand k..cuz i think we r both feeling the same abt our class..n ive seen how unfair they r to her..i find it absolutely disgusting n repulsive..i figure the class only likes me cuz im 'gd' at maths..ttz wad they think..they dun even kno me..they kno nothing..im pissed cuz of tt..cuz i felt they were making use of me..n i hate tt..cuz for the maths project thing they all wanted me in their grps cuz they
think im gd at maths..im not k..im not..i juz happen to put in alot of effort for maths cuz i really want an A for tt..i was pissed after tt la..ur obviously using me..sickening shit..this is wad i hate..im not giving them a chance..again..im ok wid them u kno..i think they r quite an ok bunch of ppl..but i hate the politics..in 2/1n 4/7..we never had politics..even the netballers din mind lyk being wid us n stuff..they had their clique yea..but we DIN feel the politics..whereas here in t9..i can FEEL the damned politics..i hate it..i duno how to handle situations lyk this..crap..n evryone thinks im attached..great..juz wad i need..n to monan somemore...im NOT att to monan..my classmates think i am..daymn..
well anyway i FINALLY made a date wid chantelle..i had no say in it..i swear..she forced it on me..haha..but im happy..cuz then i wld haf totally delayed it n not gone at all..im gona play pool for the first time..omg..im gona make a fool out of myself..n she dosnt believe i really cant play..mans..so sad..guess i wun be going out wid ICS this fri..i'll only go if sara goes..n he wun so yea i wun go as well..
probs wid my mum started again..i wonder if anything is wrong wid me..as in really..i think so..nvm..i juz hafta shift my energy to my frens instead of my family..but somehow i feel lyk ive lost evrybody..nvm..i duno wad im toking..really..i duno..
i //young of the butterfly// you 10:09 PM