Wednesday, April 13, 2005
13th aprit's mum's bday today..din wish her..i never do..
am aching frm PE..gona haf PE again tmw..went hme wid fran today..was ok la..forced her to tell me the WHOLE story abt them..hahaha...gona wish them tmw n see wad they do...HAHAHAHA...its hilarious..but anyway..yeas..still gona wish them..tis morn was quite fun la...they were ALL making fun of me saying i had a crush on BITCH!!!!!....omg..so not true..i fcking hate her to the core la..n then sara was rubbing it in...i was damn whiny tis morn..haha..cuz of them..and i went HIGH wen i saw the pink cows....PINK COWS!!!!!WHICH PRODUCE STRAWBERRY MILK!!!...haha....so fun so fun...haha...its damn crappy la..but yea..nowadays the morns r not so bad anymore..
well had a sucky day at sch today..i duno..suddenly after brk i felt lyk COMPLETE shit..wad sadia said really affected me..i felt really hurt..she gave me the impression tt i shld stop being wid her class n instead spend time wid my class..i haf been trying n its not working..besides i only wana spend time wid jo n pinks..isit too much to ask??..esp wen ive got only 2brks wid them a wk...i feel myself losing contact wid evrybody n it hurts me..its killing me bit by bit..cuz its a feeling of loneliness..n wad i hate is the fact tt thr is so many ppl ard me..but im still feeling tis way..she doesnt know how it feels..n i kno she is pretty insensitive but i cant help but smehow let tis comment affect me..ive thot abt nothing but tt the whole day..maybe im being too dependent??..clingy??..i juz feel lyk crying cuz the comment keeps ringing in my head..
came home n toked to vasan..haha..miss her..oh fuck..i juz remember i got fcking detention on fri..shit..cant go for movie..damn..now i dun even kno whether i can go for swat's party..CRAP..i wana go..so long never see swat..oh dear..must tell vasan..
12th apr tues nothing much happened..felt pretty left out in class again..n had PE..was ok la..im gona put in more effort n start exercising being the fat me...peeg...then after PE smelly me went for tuition..mr muthu wasnt his usual self..smth's definitely wrong..very wrong..i felt so bad yest..he was juz not his self..n i cldnt be myself also..was vry shitty..but after tt went hme wid jan..so long never see her..miss her also..i miss tokng a lot of rubbish wid her..really do..shanto also came for tuition..n we were making fun of jan AS USUAL..haha..our new favourite line 'only catholic sch students can do this'..haha..sorry jan but we still love u kaes...n shanto wants anthr reunion..me too...i want i want..but we cant haf it in his hse tis time..dun think he'll be too happy..smth is very wrong..i can juz feel it..its a shitty feeling..
i //young of the butterfly// you 6:25 PM