Saturday, March 12, 2005
tis wk was GREAT..it was so freaking fun.n guess wad it was lyk being in IJ all over again..i was juz so happy to see mel,jo,clare together again for once...lyk after the long hols n all..i missed all of them so much..i miss evrything..i think nxt wk we r gona organise a slpover n we r gona crap till late into the night..honestly i juz cant wait..i really spend time wid all of them again..mel's gona be going poly n im gona miss her soooooooo much..hais..4 yrs wid her u kno guess im vry vry close to her alrdy..n i juz cant bear the thought of having another sitting partner..it was so fun wid her..i mean i cld crap,cry,laugh,joke...practically do evrything wid her in class..i juz cant bear the thot of having another sitting partner othr than her..mel im gona miss u..hais..im really really sad mans..i juz hope we never ever lsoe touch...our clique..also saw pinks yest..evrytime i se pinks tis familiar rush of emtions come back to me..i guess thr was a pnt in my life whr pinks was kinda my erm role model.. she was lyk thr for me..her letters so thoughtful,deep n encouraging..n she was my GURLFREN..i miss her to bits also..haven gone out or toked to her properly in a long time..i feel lyk crying..i miss IJ so much...so terribly..evryone says going to CJ will be gd cuz its juz lyk the IJ atmosphere..but to me i think id rather haf my frens wid me..i really want us to stay together..im BAD at making frens n moreover im vry vry judgemental..i really hate tt abt myself cuz lyk tt i dun giv anybody a chance..ughs..i hate tt..i dun wana go CJ n haf no frens..hais fran n me r as gd as over..cuz of her bf n all tt shit..hais..ive been quite snappy towards her so yea..i duno wad to say la..n nives she's got her frens..n i mean her saying tt our 4yrs of frenship wun be thrown away juz lyk tt..smehow i juz cant believe tt..smemore she is prolly gona haf a bf soon..so yea.im gona be left all alone..hopefully nothing happens to jo..hais..
i guess i hold the clique really close to my heart cuz they've taught me sooooooooooooooooooooo much since the time i've been in IJ..really a lot..n ive been thru a lot wid them..ive shared stuff wid all of them also..they r juz vry vry dear to me..n the thot of us splitting up is juz so hurtful..ive been thinking abt since the wk before we collected our results..i was juz feeling so down..n the nxt wk cuz of PMS even more worse..i was really so sad..i love each n evry one of them clique members..in their own way they r all so damn special to me..all this brings back memories..happy,sad,precious...i juz feel so sad..i really wana go back to IJ..n i regret being in IJ only for 4yrs..cuz i learnt sooooo much in this 4yrs..so much..i miss evrything..i do..so much..
i //young of the butterfly// you 1:21 PM