Friday, March 25, 2005
another day in CJ today..hais..well it was ok..much better..but this time but sadly it will be the last day wid our IG..n on mon we will be in our classes..sad sad sad..cuz i hafta make new frens ALL over again...hais..smth i hate doing..am alrdy comfy wid my frens..so ya..anyways we played this caterpillar game..tt was quite ok la..i was lyk in between this guy called Rom n Darrell..then Rom was leading us..n he was so crappy..cuz he wanted to lead us uner the monkey bar..then while they were deciphering the code he was giving me some codes to decipher..n so he gave one to me i looked at it n tol him 'i heard u singing it'..i laughed..n wen sarah asked i made the action tt he was crazy..n he was lyk 'i saw tt'..haha..but he is damn funny la..n then he gave me another code...whoa.crazy..haha..but was ok la..then we were also telling each othr lotsa jokes..haha..was funny..then sarah was telling all this IJ jokes..haha..the lame n lame n dirty..haha..then we also played sailong or smth pronounced lyk tt..wadever its called.tt was fun..haha..both grps won oso la..but then the third time wen we played,thr were lyk 6 girls in the 4th row..so wen this guy got pass evrybody he came to us n was lyk begging us to let him pass thru..then as a final resort he said 'do u girls want me to touch u'..then i stared at him then we both burst out laughing..so crappy..haha..but ya la ok..not so bad..then after tt we got our orientation package..then we r going senstosa on tues i think..hais..dun really wana go out of sch..but i guess we got no choice..n i hate the PE shorts too..tried it on..a bit toooooo tight..i dun lyk it..actually i lyk IJ's shorts..they r so comfy..hmph..i really hope i get into the same class as JO..i wld love to be wid her mans..hais..so sad..im juz hoping thr wil be some familiar face thr la..hais..
anyways been thinking abt fran lately..i duno wad to say abt her la..i feel tt we've totally lost the connection la..i mean i feel tt she smehow makes use of us..its really shit la..i duno..u kno im vyr surprised tt she still hasnt intro us to her bf yet..i mean arent we her frens..wen we went out wid clare n victor[clare sorry to bring tis up]..clare intro us to him..she din lyk keep him away or anything..n also tt day wen clare asked me to go back wid her n victor im sure she wld haf intro me then n not lyk keep both of us apart or anything..its juz so crappy u kno..the other day wen i went to sch wid fran she totally din tok to him at all n din even intro us..ok its not lyk im so eager to meet him or anything but at least intro us la i mean am i not ur fren after all?..to me its lyk she is keeping her frens away frm him..lyk shielding him frm us..y?..not lyk we want him..hello???we r frens u kno..not bf stealers..im juz vyr shocked..n to me fran's quite a gd fren n all..cuz i went to sch wid her n all last yr..i kinda felt close to her but now no more..n also i think its her parent influence..how they dun approve all this indian girls n all..i think it got to her also la..i juz feel lyk shit cuz i dun wana be saying crap abt her..but to me tis is wad is happening..seriously..i feel sad,hurt,angry n evrything else..cuz i cant believe tt she is doing this..if i had tol her to intro us to him i think the first thot tt wld haf popped into her mind wld haf been 'oh no..they might be into him too'..i wldnt be surprised if she thot tt way..n also today she was supposed to go back wid him..n then he realised he had band so she cldnt go hme alone n she tol clare n me to wait for her..gd enuff we did..she came wid anothr guy n left him alone..wad wld the guy haf thot?..one gd fine fucking day she shld jolly well fucking learn how to go hme HERSELF..cuz its pissing me off..i mean she uses us to go hme wid wen her bf isnt ard..but once he is 'no im going hme wid him''..wadever k..wadever..juz get lost n go hme wid him evryday k..so annoying..she juz cant go hme herself..according to her she'll die..omg..pls..ive gone hme alone came to sch alone..do the same also ok?..my goodness..wen clare called her a hopeless romantic i juz burst out laughing..cuz its so fucking tru..to me she isnt mature enuff for a r/s yet..its juz so hopeless..aiya..i kno if i voiced tis out to anybody they'd juz say 'oh ur jealous' or 'get a bf also la'..i duno..but this is wad i feel la..i juz hope fran finds sme proper frens..let it not be an indian cuz tt indian person can never be gd..i hope she finds smeone proper la..as in a fren..sorry for being sucha bitch but i juz had to express my feelings smewhr..
i still duno wad CCA im gona join..i think i will prolly join ICS..but i heard abt the politics..hais..duno la..im gona be the only new piece of shit who joins ICS..n i dun wana go thru any shit ice breakers or orientations..fuck la..
these days i think ive been using the f-word way too much..n now its lyk a normal word for me alrdy..i need a new swear/curse word..fuck is boring..fuck..see thrs no kick in using it..
ooh mel..yeas i received jo's letter..thanks for the warning cuz if i had not checked the letterbox immeadiately after i read ur tag i think my mum wld haf taken the letter n never give it to me..well i cried too..hais hais..i duno wad to say..my emotions are choking me..i got one thing to say n tt is i really really love u JO..muahs**a vry special one for u..
i //young of the butterfly// you 2:27 PM